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What happened

I need to write this down- partially so I can stop replaying it in my head and partially so that I can remember.

It was a little after five- it was a cold, rainy afternoon that I typically love and I was walking through the drizzle to get to my car in Depot Town. I'm too much of a cheap-ass to get a commuter pass for the parking lot, so I've been leaving it at Frog Island park instead, plus the fifteen-minute walk isn't too much of a bother.

After retrieving my car I headed down Cross street. I was headed to the Cheneys' house on Packard to pack up the last of my possessions and finally move in with Rae and Josh. Traffic around 5pm on Cross is always stop-and-go and crazy, but I found myself unprepared when I was coming up to Hamilton where the light had turned green. Traffic was moving. I moved. The guy in front of me slammed on his breaks and I tried to as well, but the wet roads weren't in my favor. There was a massive crunch as my Focus hit the back of an Intrepid; my body was jolted forward and hit the steering wheel (thank god I was wearing a seat belt) and my stuff went flying all over the car, which shattered my rear-view mirror.

There was a moment after I went into the back end of his car that I couldn't move or speak or breathe... or pray. Thinking about it... it felt like my heart had stopped. Then everything came flooding in at once- the pain I felt, how I couldn't breathe, was the other driver all right, was I all right, what would my mom think once she heard that I had crashed in the very car that we'd gotten fixed last week. I wondered if I was injured or if I was going to die.

Somehow I managed to collect myself and take the car twenty feet or so to the parking lane in front of a church. I scrambled to latch open the driver's side door and I found myself so overcome with pain, distress, and fear that I tumbled onto the cold, wet pavement gasping for breath. I remember other drivers looking at the obvious terror on my face as I panted, half on the ground.... and driving on as if they'd seen nothing.

The rest is a blur: asking a stoner couple who'd seen everything to help me call the police, waiting like a wraith in a sopping wool coat on the steps of the church for the police (who took twenty minutes....) just staring at the remains of my car. I cried on and off, so by the time police and fire arrived my cheeks were streaked with green and gray. The EMT's checked me out, the police officer took my information... and gave me a ticket (my first ever, joy), and I frantically made phone calls. Perhaps the biggest slice of wierd in this incident was that the man that I hit had his friend take us both to the emergency room to be checked out- me for the pain in my ribs, him for a pulled muscle in his shoulder. I was admitted quickly to triage, put on the sterile blue gown, was poked and prodded.... asked everything from allergies to religious preference. The doctor gave me slips of paper. Rae arrived with a mug of tea and I painfully stooped into her Mini.

They say there's a chance my car will be totalled and that I have a broken rib. Won't be sure for a couple of days, which is what I have since my life has been put on hold by Doctor's Orders.

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wendyzski
Nov. 18th, 2010 02:37 am (UTC)

Oh honey. I totaled a rental car a year ago last summer and actually hit my head and blacked out for a bit - I still dont remember the accident itself.

A ticket for 'following too closely' is apparently standard any time you hit anyone, no matter the circumstances. I got one too.

Here's hoping the ribs are just sore or cracked, not broken. Let your friends take care of you for a bit.

yuuzaiden
Nov. 18th, 2010 02:56 am (UTC)
Oh god, hon.
I have nothing to say but except I'm glad you're alive.
What you've been through was terrible, but you're gonna be ok.
Take it one day at a time and listen to your doctor.
morbid_curious
Nov. 18th, 2010 02:56 am (UTC)
Grim news indeed! I'm just glad that you're still (mostly) with us. Many good thoughts are being sent your way, and I hope your recovery proceeds apace.
congo_bill
Nov. 18th, 2010 05:10 am (UTC)
I know something of what those experiences are like, and my thoughts and wishes for comfort and healing are with you. This world is a better place with you in it, so be mindful, at peace and take good care of yourself.
stitchjock
Nov. 18th, 2010 03:30 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry that this happened to you, and rest assured that sometimes it's unavoidable. I've been in a couple of minor smash-ups and they are hard to get over.

I am so glad to hear that you are well and on the mend. Please let me know if there's anything I can do for you.
atdt1991
Nov. 18th, 2010 03:34 pm (UTC)
Awww, heck.

If insurance covers it, your best hope is that your car is totaled (it's happened to me, and I've had a car not be totaled, and let me say that the car is never the same, nor remotely the same value).

Remember that it's just a car, and we're all grateful you lived through it, and hopefully you will heal soon.
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